Jin's Excursion {P} {NK}

Why was jin in the frozen tundra again?...As it chilled his very core to the bone, He never wore warm clothes, As he often reminded himself from time to time..But as he walked he found great ease in the journey, since it wasnt about the destination, but the journey itself. Why...I always walk like im going to find something..My real home, The proof of why im here, why i wanted to be a ninja? Thats simple enough..But i dont think everything else is simple as that... 

He would take some steps as his feet crushed the very ground he stood upon. Causing it to raise a uproar of dust, which happened to be snow around them. As it slipped into his feet, causing a chill to spread up from them. He diddnt care, he never cared. Well, That was a lie, he cared a whole lot, Oh he cared too much even, Did anyone care? Okay that was dramatic, Someone cared, And he knew it. The problem was, Who? Who would provide him comfort in times of need from the endless assault that was the snow..? Or even his problems.

He had no pets, His dream was ruined and he would probably never have any of these things to provide support for his somewhat broken heart, What was compassion and loyalty to himself doing so far? Nothing.. Did he care? This was a subject that fell upon him most of the time..why did he care that he cared? Eh, maybe it was the simple need to know what you want and when you want it, or was it? Why did most of his thoughts end in contradiction. Why did he care about most of his thoughts?!

Why....

Why why why!?...Jin would decide that no matter how many why's were used in his thoughts it would not change the outcome, This did not mean however the why's would stop altogether. He would dash, as the cold air splatted upon his face, As he breathed in...and out...Using his nose, Not his mouth, he found using your mouth got your lips to freeze up, while using your nose just happened to work better for him. For some reason as his feet treated upon the tundra, going atleast somewhat circular to yukigakure, That he fell upon the act of childbirth.

Why did he come back to childbirth? He couldnt answer that question himself, And he wasnt sure he wanted to. Eh, he never would care, atleast he thought he would never would care. As he slammed his fists upon the ground in contemplation of everything that was going on, The thoughts..The actions. He hated that stupid ninja academy, He never wanted to become a ninja. It was all because of his mom, as she had gotten hurt, which made jin feel all god dang guilty that he needed to do a service as some sort of hero of the night.

It was immediately obvious shinobi were not heroes, They acted upon orders from higher up. Not their own gut, And with that, Jin decided he was not going to fall on orders, he was going to fall on his beliefs. he can say he will follow orders but that would be a lie. His instinct was his decisions, not the cruelty his higher ups would decide. As his breath felt harder to maintain, the cold starting to get to his body as it entered in rage, Jin fell right to the ground and looked upon the sky...The blue sky, with its freedom and beauty 

The fuckers who took orders above their feelings..Above the act of kindness, Charity. Those people ticked jin off so damn much he almost couldnt stand them. His body would shake upon seeing them as they worked not for their homes. but for one stupid idiots will. If only the people up top had a sense of charity....The ability to show others kindness and mercy. No that wasnt a shinobi, That was a idiot! That was a person with damn hive mentality!

Jin wanted to be a ninja, he did. But he diddnt want to be like them...them.. They werent even human anymore, Those that had no soul or had sold it to one person are not people to look at kindly. Only those who had the traits, those simple traits that jin knew were good. Were what the world should be, No war...No killing, That crap leads to more crap...One person killed, And then revenge is sought, 1 war is like leaving a thousand grudges.

Jin never wanted that to happen, For him to lose his humanity...So he would fight for it! He would claim his humanity like it was stolen from him! He would never let it taken. As his body dashed with even more intensity. Like a wave of strength, a wave of will had overcome his very existence. After this he knew it, after all his experiences, He would take the genin exam with great intensity.

This was his chance to sieze it! To gain that golden rank which hands upon him a headband...To show the world that good intentions can accompany being a ninja. To take the world by storm with this thought, It would not fade, it would not faulter. The wind clashed upon his face. Jin of yukigakure...The Storm of hope! That which would re-define the word shinobi! A protector of the peace! Not a cause of harm! Not a soulless beast!

As he dashed and dashed, he felt tired...falling on his face and laying on the ground as he looked upon the sky again.

My name is jin..Im not the strongest, i dont really have a goal..I may not even be the smartest...But i have a couple words to say if you try to mess with my beliefs...And you better believe that. and then he felt a feeling.

Yup.....